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Effects of Childhood Sexual Abuse, Part 1

April is designated as abuse prevention month for the state of Texas.  Therefore, the majority of posts for this month will orbit around childhood abuse and the effects of such abuse.  I pray that our world can come to a place where no child is ever abused again!

Effects of abuse, part 1
By Paul Irby Special to the Abilenian
Abilene Reporter-News
Posted December 3, 2008 at 11:21 a.m.

It seems the sexual abuse of children is an epidemic in our society. This evil respects no boundaries of gender, race, ethnicity or socioeconomic status. The Mental Health Association of Abilene recognizes thousands of people in the Big Country have been impacted by this epidemic. Therefore, executive director Kirk Hancock has commissioned the penning of six articles over the course of six months for the purpose of educating the general public regarding the potential developmental impacts of sexual abuse on its victims.

When approaching the discussion of this subject, it is important to note there are no standard or predictable outcomes, and some seem to adjust better post-abuse than others.

For the next five months, Mental Health Matters will have articles highlighting how specific dimensions of a person can be impacted by sexual abuse. These articles will take a “shotgun” approach to describing potential impacts. It should be noted not all survivors of sexual abuse will experience all the effects discussed, and the intensity with which others endure their respective impacts will differ. Therefore, it stands to reason that we first answer the question of what factors influence the intensity of the adverse developmental impacts on a child who has been sexually abused.

The duration and frequency of the abuse is one important component to consider. Some children experience the abuse on a daily, weekly or monthly frequency for a duration of months or years. Others have endured less chronic or isolated instances of abuse. It is this latter group that has the least amount of susceptibility to adverse consequences down the road.

Another consideration is the kind of abuse perpetrated. Survivors with the most intense developmental impacts are those who sustained penetration orally, anally or vaginally. The invasive nature of these acts adds to the already deep sense of violation, both physically and psychologically. Sexual abuse can include less invasive, yet still horrific, forms such as manual stimulation and groping over the clothes.

The response of adults to the child’s disclosure of the abuse is another vital piece to understanding the resilience of some abused children.

Common mistakes parents and other significant adults make when a child musters the courage to disclose the abuse are not believing the child, blaming the child or defining the child by the abuse. The lack of support, blame and even punishment of the child can have just as devastating impacts as the actual abuse.

Other factors include the age and temperament of the child, the presence of violence or intimidation, along with the sexual abuse and the relationship of the abuser to the abused.

While nothing positive exists in an abusive situation, there are “best case” scenarios. Bear in mind, even children who come from a “worst case” scenario who access quality professional help and have a solid social support system can not only survive, but thrive.

Next month we will explore possible mental or cognitive impacts sexual abuse can have on a child.

Paul Irby, M.A., is a licensed professional counselor with the Ministry of Counseling and Enrichment. Mental Health Matters is facilitated by the Mental Health Association in Abilene.

Original article found here:
http://www.reporternews.com/news/2008/dec/03/effects-abuse-part-1it-seems-sexual-abuse-children/

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Red Light

I have taken the liberty to edit out what I felt might be triggering language for our readers in recovery.

Red Light
by Brian Westbye

They used to say that my looks could stop traffic. Yeah, I’d stop traffic for any cheap hood waving a $20 in my face. Looks can only take you so far, and then it’s what you do with your looks. And when you’re young and dumb and desperate to make it…

I worked Avenue B a lot. Noon rush, usually. I’d get lots of executive types that would cut out for a little “exercise” on their lunch break, if you know what I mean. Alphabet City was a wasteland back then, so these big-wigs would come down from midtown or up from the financial district, ‘cause they didn’t want to be seen anywhere around their offices. Smart, right? But business was good. Lots of Jaguars and Mercedes and guys that had money to burn on cocaine and hookers. And there I was.

Like I said, I was young and dumb. Fresh from the sticks. I wanted to make it as an actress. Hell, who didn’t? I tried waitressing, but I was horrible at it. Tried working in a grocery store, but I was horrible at that, too. Tried working as a secretary, but I couldn’t pass all those tests. I was out of work, and one of my girl friends suggested I try it. Some friend, right?

I guess I got “lucky” on my first time. I went out with my girl friend, and my first was some middle-management guy in a cab. He was clean, and he was staying at the Sheraton on Seventh at 52nd.  First time out and I hit the jackpot.

If only the rest were like that. You wouldn’t believe what pigs some of them were. Guy in a Bentley pulls up, I jump in and the car reeks. Can you imagine sex with that? Sometimes we’d do business in the car on the sidewalk in broad daylight. And sometimes we’d check into the most disgusting flops you could imagine. Cockroaches, stains on the sheets…just sick. Lot of times after a  job like that I had to take my shoes off in the street and shake out the bugs. And you can imagine what it felt like up my skirt.

It’s a hell of a thing to be servicing a guy whose wardrobe is worth more than your monthly rent in a dump like that. It really kind of makes you feel your place in life. But I felt my self-worth in a pile of bills in my hand at the end. And then I went out and felt even more self-worth.

Me and my looks, right? Jesus. Me, the Human Red Light.

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The Prostitute

The Prostitute
by A Single Delight

All she wants is to be held in someone else’s arms.

It’s a gnawing feeling that only crawling into someone else’s bed can erase, and even then, she’s found that the ideal arms she’s looking for are not as easily found as she first thought they’d be.

The first man had skin like burnt sand, made to look even darker by being carpeted with coarse black hair. His muscles were high-strung and cruel, but even so, she almost didn’t want to escape, because he’d convinced himself that he needed her in the way that a master needs a slave.

The next set of arms were milder, with reddish undertone that flared up when the owner’s blood quickened. They were kind arms that lulled her into dancing for him; a jerky, disjointed dance where she became like liquid in his arms, and flopped about helplessly, even with his support. To them, their dance was never embarrassing unless someone else pointed it out.

She’d also been desperate enough to go to the arms of a merchant; a man with fat, golden arms covered with self-inflicted scars. Time after time, those arms would give her no rest, not even when she tried to give him everything he wanted. Despite this, she would usually go back to him, not because he is any better than the others, but because she is the one who made him rich.

She continues her search, even if it means she has to writhe on the ground in order to move forward. People raise their eyebrows at her stubbornness and persistence, while some laugh at her stupidity. Others would wrinkle their nose in disgust, but most would try to ignore her presence. Very few have shed tears for her.

She is not a prostitute. A prostitute demands money for her services. A prostitute is wanted. A good prostitute can twist others’ arms into loving her and giving her everything she could ever want, and more.

She is the opposite of a prostitute – even though she does the same things, she goes about it in the opposite way, with the opposite effect. So she builds shrines to herself, settles for the arms of second-rate men, and tries to forget where home is.

The above story is one person’s analogy of what is written in Ezekiel 16 about Jerusalem and her destestable practices.  God uses “shock & awe” to get His point across to the people of Jerusalem by comparing them to a prostitute that freely gives herself to many lovers.  How have you prostituted yourself?

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Slaying The Giant Of Pornography

Slaying The Giant Of Pornography
by Jared Keel, September 19, 2012

Pornography is a serious problem that is plaguing today’s generation of men, especially our young men. Even though Pornography has been around for many of years, it is worse now than any other time before because of technology. Technology has made it so easy to look at porn all you have to do is fire up the computer and click a few buttons. Actually it is even worse than that, pornography can now be viewed on your cell phone.

Statistics show that the average age of first internet exposure to pornography is 11 years old, 47 percent of Christians say that pornography is a major problem in the home, and about 1 in 5 pastors have done something sexually immoral in the past 30 days and most of that is because of pornography. These statistics are scary but true.

After reading the statistics about porn and seeing how much of a problem it is in todays society a question came to my mind, and it actually bothers me alot, that question is, “Where is the church?”. I grew up going to church all my life and I have never heard a pastor or youth pastor talk about the issue of pornography.  It would seem like our pastors and especially our youth pastors would try to address the problem of pornography and do something about it. So where does this leave our young men? It leaves them very confused, they feel as if there is no help, and that there is nobody to talk to about it. If you are struggling with pornography, don’t worry you are not alone, there are millions of people out there that have the same problem you have. There is help and I know that with God’s grace you can and will overcome this.

What does pornography do to you? Many people believe that pornography isn’t serious and they think that it is normal for somebody to look at it. They believe it has no effect on somebody but pornography  is just as dangerous and addicting as cocaine. Pornography and cocaine release the same kind of chemicals in the brain. Pornography actually releases more of these addicting chemicals, therefore it is about 5 to 7 times more addicting than cocaine. After men look at porn, it leaves them with feelings of guilt, shame, regret, and humiliation which results in them isolating themselves. That leads to loneliness and depression and can eventually lead to suicide. Pornography rewires your brain and makes you view women differently. Pornography makes you think that women are these dirty, nasty, sex crazed objects that only want sex. This is not true. Women were never created to be viewed as or thought of like this. If your addiction to pornography is not dealt with now then it will greatly affect your relationships. Your addiction to pornography will not end when you get married. It will take away your intimacy in marriage and eventually your wife will no longer be “good enough” for you. It can even lead to adultery.

What does the Bible say about pornography? Even though the Bible does not use the word pornography, it actually does have something to say about it. Jesus tells us in Matthew 5:28, I say to you that whoever looks at a woman to lust after her has already committed adultery with her in his heart, (NKJV). One of the ten commandments (God’s holy moral law) says, you shall not commit adultery. So Jesus is telling us that  lusting after a woman is the same as committing adultery. This means that if you are looking with lust or looking at pornography then you are in big trouble with God. 1 Corinthians 6:18 tells us to, “flee sexual immorality”, we are not to make any provision for sexual sin. We need to be like Joseph when he was tempted by potiphar’s wife, fleeing from sexual immorality!

Pornography is addicting and it is a battle that almost every man faces but just like David went out to fight and slay the giant Goliath, you also can slay the giant of pornography. The first step to overcoming it, is surrendering your whole life to Jesus Christ. There is no way you can overcome it without God’s help. Repent of your sins, turn away from them and never look back, and place your faith in Jesus Christ to save you. Give your whole life to Him, completely surrendering. Jesus said He would send us a Helper (John 16:7), Which is the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit will help you when you are tempted. He will give you the power to overcome it. Hebrews 4:16 says, Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace in time of need. We can come boldy to God and recieve His grace to help us and empower us to overcome any temptation.

Here are ten ways to break the stronghold of pornography. these were written by my favorite evangelist Ray Comfort.

1. Would you ever take pornography to church and view it during worship? You may as well, because God is just as present in your bedroom as He is in your church building.

2. Face the fact that you may not be saved. Examine yourself to ensure that Christ is living in you (2 Cor. 13:5). See Romans 6:11-22; 8:1-14, Ephesians 5:3-8.

3. Realize that when you give yourself to pornography, you are committing adultery (Matthew 5:27,28).

4. Grasp the serious nature of your sin. Jesus said it would be better for you to be blind and go to heaven, than for your eye to cause you to sin and end up in hell (Matthew 5:29).

5. Those who profess to be Christians yet give themselves to pornographic material evidently lack the fear of God (Proverbs 16:6). Cultivate the fear of God by reading Proverbs 2:1-5.

6. Read Psalm 51 and make it your own prayer.

7. Memorize James 1:14,15 and 1 Cor. 10:13. Follow Jesus’ example (Matt. 4:3-11) and quote the word of God when you are tempted (see Eph. 6:12-20).

8. Make no provision for your flesh (Rom. 13:14; 1 Pet. 2:11). Get rid of every access to pornographic material-the internet, printed literature, TV, videos, and movies. stop feeding the fire.

9. Guard your heart with all diligence (Prov. 4:23). Don’t let the demonic realm have access to your thought life. If you give yourself to it, you will become its slave (Rom. 6:16). Read the Bible daily, without fail. As you submit to God, the devil will flee (James 4:7,8).

10. The next time temptation comes, do fifty push-ups, then fifty sit-ups. If you are still burning, repeat the process ( see 1 Cor. 9:27).

You can overcome pornography. God will help you. Seek God in prayer before you start the day, asking Him to help you when temptation tries to come your way. It is said that the idle mind is the devils playground. Keep yourself busy and you won’t have time to look at pornography. A battle is never won without a fight, so pick up your sword and slay the giant of pornography.

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Rising from the Depths of Pornography

Rising from the Depths of Pornography
September 19, 2012
By Alcoholic’s Daughter, Schizophrenic’s Sister

Let me tell you a side story of my life…

As a child around five or six years of age, I was inadvertently exposed to visual pornography by careless adults, including my alcohlic father, who watched videos thinking I was already fast asleep on the couch, or who left their magazines just lying around.

When you can’t understand things, you are not even sure why they are wrong. My natural curiosity made me want to go over them time and time again. I also played the scenes back and forth in my mind. I even encouraged my sister (who was diagnosed as schizophrenic in her late twenties) to join in the fun, not to chicken out and turn off the TV when intimate scenes were on display.

At one point, I remember pre-adolescent me crying and in a tantrum as my mother found the stash and threw it away. The problem was that she did not leave me any explanation of why this was wrong and sinful in the first place.

For a time, I had no more of such stimuli, and developed a fascination with the written word. By my teen-aged years though, literary pornography came into the picture with graphically-written romance novels and best sellers describing the requisite intimate moments. Peer pressure was on with this being the favorite pastime of all the girl in my high school. I kept on buying and borrowing books. Even the required English class reading featured a few scenes here and there. By this time, I would go back to these books, re-read these specific scenes and practice self-abuse. If I had ever been in a relationship during those turbulent years, I would have had dallied with pre-marital sex, gone through teenaged pregnancy, married at a young age and then separated by the time I was in my mid-twenties. This happened to a lot of my peers, even those on the honor roll.

In my late teens, God’s grace intervened. I rediscovered the beauty of the Catholic faith, started to frequent the Sacraments, followed sound advice from prudent spiritual directors, and answered the call to virginity for the sake of the kingdom of God.

I still have to struggle to live chastity in my state of life and live a temperate life with all the temptations made available to us by mainstream media and the new media powered by the internet. I have also been left with self-esteem issues due to comparisons with the reality of my developmental changes in comparison with what I have seen or read.

I count on the grace of God though to overcome my past and look forward to a future in His Heavenly Kingdom.