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Here is how 12 step meetings start, specifically Castimonia Christ centered ones. We introduce ourselves using first names and we identify ourselves by our addictions. Here is where I digress. This is how I introduce myself: My name is K_____, I am a follower of Christ and well this is where it gets difficult. Many people in my group introduce themselves as sex addicts or struggling with sexual purity. And I did the same for a while. I struggled with how to label myself. Until I realized something. I am not a sex addict. Ok, before you think I am in denial, hear me out.

I am not better or less of a damaged, fallen sinner. I just have a different view of where I am. Believe me, I didn’t get here on my own. I struggled with this for months. I labeled myself a sex addict, a relationship addict, an addict, damaged, struggling with sexual purity, fighting for sexual purity. I got very confused and just wasn’t sure. So I stopped. I asked my counselor for advice and guidance.

Here is how he put it to me. He asked me what I sought throughout my years of acting out. Was I seeking sexual gratification or pornography to medicate whatever I was struggling with at the time? The answer was no. I sought to fill those empty spaces in many different ways, not just one.

For me that took many different forms. From seeking affirmation, to long term relationships, to constant escape through reading, and through compulsive behavior through running up to and including marathons.  I can name off multiple ways I sought to escape and numb any pain or emotion. Intimacy avoidance is how I describe my path prior to recovery. I think that is accurate. I think I used many different destructive behaviors to hide from intimacy is how I would classify myself.

I tend to now just identify myself as being in recovery. I have a story. It is different from anyone else’s story. It is much the same as everyone else’s story as well. I am fighting for sexual purity, struggling with addiction, trying to refrain from compulsive behavior and remain in recovery. I just don’t think I can call myself a sex addict. My story isn’t about the pursuit of a sexual high through pornography, masturbation, or sexual experiences.

My story is about trying to stay away from the emotions that hurt. Through whatever means necessary. My story is about seeking out ways to lessen the sting of abandonment, of medicating my anxiety from not being in control. My story is about a lack of trust. I learned from an early age that I couldn’t trust my parents. That my mother would lie to me and others to control a situation. That I couldn’t trust anyone, especially God, with the truth of my flaws and sins. I could turn my life over to God, my salvation, but not my will. Not my daily life.

That is the crux of my story. I didn’t believe I could trust anyone. I knew I couldn’t. How could God be any different? I saw first hand in the fundamentalist environment I grew up in that sin and flaws were not acceptable not only to God but to others as well. So I dove deep. I dove deep into hiding and secrecy. I fled an intimate relationship with God and with others.

My name is K______, I am a believer in Christ, and I am in recovery.

Our host church, The Fellowship will be closed in observance of Memorial Day on Monday, May 29th so we are canceling the Castimonia Monday night meeting at this church. The meeting will resume the following Monday night at its regular time and location.

For an alternate meeting, please visit the West Houston location at Lifepath Church.

Monday Nights
Time: 7:00PM – 8:30PM
Location: Lifepath Church – Room 108
17703 W Little York Rd
Houston, TX 77084

I am humbled to announce that we will officially be starting a new Castimonia meeting on Thursday nights in Painted Post, NY (near Corning and Elmira, NY) on June 8th.  This is exactly how God’s ministry should grow.  A member that attended in Sugar Land and Greenway was brave enough to take it to his location in New York answering, “Lord send me!”  I am very grateful for this man’s bravery and for his faithfulness to the Lord.

Location information is written below.

Beginning June 8th
Thursday Nights
7:00PM – 8:30PM
Victory Highway Wesleyan Church
150 Victory Highway
Painted Post, NY  14870

Praise be to God, the father of our Lord Jesus Christ, for all He has done to grow His ministry!

Great sermon from last Sunday, very applicable to our fight for sexual purity.


If the above link does not work you can watch it here:

Notes from the sermon can be found here:–relationship-goals—qr-sheet.pdf

Saturday, May 6: 8:30 am – 3:30 pm

Find Freedom from problems that won’t go away.

As a Christian, you care called to live a life in abundance, to be set free – but does your life express this reality?

Do you experience situations or feelings of envy, jealousy, sadness, depression, fear, panic, alcoholism, pornography, insomnia, irritation, bitterness, anger, strife, broken relationship, low self esteem?

If so, you have a need for a deeper healing in your soul … and we want to help you with this one day seminar to teach basic concepts of spiritual warfare, deliverance and healing of the soul.

Join us on Saturday, May 6 from 8:30 am – 3:30 pm in The Life Center at The Fellowship.

Seminar topics will include:

-Spiritual Legality: how personal behavior allows access for unclean spirits

-Paternity: how my parental relationship affects one’s life

-Sexual Restoration: how to purge one’s life from sexual sin

-Forgiveness: how to forgive yourself and others

-Spiritual Warfare: how to be effective in personal battles with the devil

FREE registration – but it is required. Optional lunch available for purchase ($6-8).  Childcare is not available for this event.

Click here to register:


Intimacy means more than I imagine. All of the definitions are difficult to achieve!

I am humbled to announce the  publishing of our ministry’s second book:

Battle Plan
Weapons & Armor in the Fight for Sexual Purity


Authored by Servants of Christ
Edition: First Edition

Castimonia is Latin for “moral purity” something every man should strive for.

Castimonia is a Christ-centered 12-Step Support and Recovery program for sexual impurity or sexual addiction with the goal to achieve a Biblically-based sexual purity. We share our experience, strength, and hope with each other so that we may achieve sexual purity and help others overcome sexual impurity or compulsive sexual behaviors.

This book is used for helping men in the Castimonia program fight for their sexual purity with various weapons (proactive tools) and armor (reactive tools). The copyright to this book belongs to Armaturam, LLC and all material in this book is being used by permission of the copyright holder.  

Many thanks to Alcoholics Anonymous and Sex Addicts Anonymous for paving the way in the 12-Step world as well as the countless men in recovery and the therapists that have helped facilitate God’s healing of their wounds.  Most importantly, thank you to the patient spouses who have put up with our issues long enough to make this ministry and book possible.

Original Publication Date: March 30, 2017

5″ x 8″ (12.7 x 20.32 cm)
Black & White on Cream paper
136 pages
ISBN-13: 978-1536886634
ISBN-10: 1536886637
Related Categories: Self-Help / Twelve-Step Programs

The book can be purchased at any Castimonia meeting  or via the Create Space store. 

If you are a man struggling with Sexual Purity and would like to purchase a copy of the book for the same amount as sold at Castimonia meetings ($12) please contact the publisher, Armaturam, LLC for a discount rate: