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January 26, 2014 By Castimonia

Are You Detached From Your Mistress?

Did you ever look at the word “Mistress” and sound it out like an kindergarten student would? It would be “MI – STRESS” or “My Stress” – sounds about right….

originally posted on: http://porntopurity.com/blog/2013/05/07/are-you-detached-from-your-mistress/

Guest blogger Tom Daniels has over a decade of experience leading groups and working with guys struggling with sexual sin. Tom returns to share another blog with us.

Check out his previous blog from last week called “Compartmentalizing, Getting Caught and Consequences”

Just as we need to connect the devastating consequences to our acting out, we need to detach from the bonds we have established with our “mistress”, our “drug of choice”.

When we engage in sex, we bond with whoever or whatever we are connecting to. Our neural pathways don’t know the difference between a healthy relationship and an unhealthy one. Our brains reach to repetition and create bigger pipelines for the flow to that area. It’s like adding lanes to a freeway to accommodate more traffic.

We who struggle with sexual sin have developed an affection for our mistress. Whether your mistress is an actual person, prostitutes, or porn, our mistress has been there whenever we needed her. When we’re stressed, lonely, bored, horny, feeling rejected or unloved, misunderstood, unappreciated, unaccepted she is always available. With open arms she gives me the illusion of comfort, acceptance and love.

YOUR SPOUSE CAN’T COMPETE WITH YOUR MISTRESS The contrast to our spouses can be dramatic because no woman, regardless of how wonderful, could possibly hope to match the availability of our fantasy “mistress”. I say fantasy because even if it is a real person it is still an unrealistic relationship. You are not raising kids with this person, not paying bills, dealing with pets, school, housework, in-laws, yard work, etc., you just get together and have fun and resent that your marriage isn’t like this.

You may wonder to yourself:

How come my wife isn’t as understanding as my “mistress”?
How come she doesn’t desire me the way my “mistress” does?
How come it is so much work to have a relationship with my wife when it is so easy with my “mistress”?

It is because your wife is a real person and you have a real relationship with her. You are sharing your lives together, not merely an afternoon or a few minutes here and there.

The bond we create with our “mistress” is real and it is something that must be broken if we are ever going to be truly free from bondage.

DELIVERED FROM YOUR MISTRESS Many times I have seen men prayed for and delivered from addiction only to go back to it within a relatively short time. Were they truly delivered? I believe they were, but they chose to go back to their “mistress” because they still had affection for her.

Being delivered is only part of the healing, we need to break the bonds and connection in order to truly be free. Jesus will not override our ability to choose, it is up to us to do that, but the Holy Spirit will help us if we will take the steps necessary and turn our back on our idols. God will not share us with any other “gods”.

The most important step in breaking the bond of affection to our “mistress” is to recognize that she never loved us or cared for us in any way at all! She hated us and set out from the start to destroy us! The Enemy used her, whether in the form of prostitutes, affairs, porn, lingerie, sex toys, or even just fantasy, to set us up for destruction.

Satan’s goal is to make us ineffective for service to our Lord, to eliminate us as warriors, to wreck our marriages, to set our children up for failure because we are not the men of God they need as Dad, to cause us to worship created things rather than the Creator, and he uses sex to do it.

Sadly, I am not the only one fooled by this “mistress”, many men are caught in the same trap and I pray that they can see the illusion for what it is and how the Enemy has used them and break free from its terrible grip before any more devastation takes place.

Recognizing the “mistress” for who and what she really is, is a key step to full recovery as we will never cut her off completely unless we see her as she truly is, deadly and deceitful.

“What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God–through Jesus Christ our Lord!” Rom 7:24-25

January 24, 2014 By Castimonia

Pornography is Vulnerable

originally posted on: http://shessomebodysdaughter.wordpress.com/2013/05/07/pornography-is-vulnerable/

“As soon as you name it, it’s vulnerable.”

When our friend Donna spoke these words, it was easy to realize why our She’s Somebody’s Daughter initiative is going to be so powerful.

Everyone thinks of pornography as being too big to take down. It’s a multi-billion dollar industry. It has permeated our society to the point where an alarming number of otherwise reasonable and intelligent people see it as “normal.”

Those who do see it as problem often express the attitude that it is s too late to do anything about it. Thanks to the ever-evolving technology industry and the lack of common-sense restraints placed upon it, “Pandora’s box has been opened,” they say.

But even though this conversation should have started before the internet was unleashed on the world; even though the pornography industry is huge; even though pornography has increasingly become a part of mainstream life; even though the technology makes it as easy to find as your nearest laptop or “smart” phone – pornography is still vulnerable

Why? Because anything built on a foundation of lies will come crashing down once the truth is spoken.

Watch an old black and white movie from the forties. All the movie stars are smoking. Smoking is what the beautiful people do. It’s glamorous and sophisticated.

Well eventually we learned the truth about smoking. It gives people cancer. Nobody thinks it’s glamorous anymore. Nobody appreciates being exposed to second-hand smoke. Even those of us who can’t kick the habit know that it is death by degrees.

Pornography causes cancer too. Pornography kills. It kills relationships.

It kills families. Ironically, it even kills libido, dramatically increasing impotence among the men who use it.

Pornography is slow, sexual suicide.

And behind the sanitized “I read Playboy for the articles ” version of boys being boys is a nightmare world of people using people – of manipulation, violence, drug abuse, and sex trafficking. It is a world of never-ending pain.

Once the facts about pornography are widely known people will start making different choices. But first we have to tell the truth.

People are going to ask “Who is it hurting?” And we’re going to tell them. It is hurting everyone.

Because whenever any human being is being turned into an object for the selfish sexual gratification of another it makes the world a colder, crueler place. What demeans any one of us demeans all of us.

You will hear all the same uniformed arguments. People are going to say, “It’s just another form of entertainment. “ We’re going to ask them how entertaining would it be if their wife or daughter or sister were on the screen?

The simple truth about She’s Somebody’s Daughter is this. No one wants his or her daughter – or son – to be sexually assaulted on camera for someone to watch.

That’s not normal. That’s not harmless. That’s not “just entertainment.”

And once we tell the truth – and tell it again, and again, and again – the foundation of lies on which pornography now stands will crumble and fall.

Are you ready to name it and tell the truth?

January 22, 2014 By Castimonia

Sexual Addiction Kills

originally posted: http://blog.lifemoreabundant.net/2013/05/06/sexual-addiction-kills/

We are well aware of the dangers of SOME addictions. It is reported that nearly 12,000 people died in alcohol related traffic deaths: 33,000 in drug overdoses and over 440,000 in smoking related deaths in the U.S. in 2009 alone. The risks are obvious. We get it.

But what about sexual addiction? It’s different . . . isn’t it? How could THIS addiction kill anyone?

Although it may sound melodramatic, sexual addiction is no less damaging to a person than a cancerous tumor or a bad heart. The disease of addiction will ultimately cost you your life, whether literally or by simply commandeering your every waking moment. Experts tell us that 71% of sexual addicts have reported considering suicide as the only hope for getting out of their addictive cycle . . . and sadly, some do eventually go through with it. Many more addicts risk life-threatening disease through affairs, prostitutes and other risky behavior.

But, even those who manage to stay alive physically, are not in the clear. It may not happen today . . . or tomorrow . . . but give enough time, sexual addiction WILL suck the life out of you and ruin your relationships, reputation and maybe even your career in the process. Left unchecked, what started out as intriguing and exciting diversion will eventually turn destructive. Those that have experienced it say that actual death would have most certainly been easier than the aching loneliness and agonizing numbness that little by little replaced what remained of their lives.

God offers us LIFE . . . ALL of us. It’s not too late for you. Reach out to God and others. No matter how far you’ve gone down the wrong road, there are people and a loving God out there that can help you find your way back.

“This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice and hold fast to him.” — Deuteronomy 30:19-20

January 20, 2014 By Castimonia

A Porn Viewer’s Prayer

by Brad Andres

God.

Change me.

My insides are a mess – Spiritually I am tarnished.

I want to hide myself; I’m ashamed. However, you see right through me.

So I close my eyes: I see a vision of arms reaching into my body, grasping inside my stomach and chest. They’re thrashing through black gunk; they’re tearing out pieces I can only describe as utterly nasty. I feel a warm, burning sensation inside; my heart is on fire. The pornography, the lust, the weakness is being torched from my body.

Oh God – I am dirty; I am weak. Help me break free from pornography!

Rip it out of my inner being. You can do it in one day, in a matter of minutes. Oh God. Do it. Tear out everything filthy from inside me. Forgive me for sinning.

I do not want to notice attractive women. I do not want to have these haunting flash back memories of previous sexual encounters. I do not want to remember the ladies on the computer screen.

Banish them from me – Please!

I know there are consequences to my sins. I realize that I gave part of my soul away and connected it with each girl that I slept with – or even masturbated to. I realize, that by all rights, I am now intimately connected with each of them in a spiritual way.

But God, have mercy on me, a sinner! I say – Lord Jesus, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

Undo my stupidity. Undo my sin. Enable me to give myself all the way to my wife – my one and only. I shall commit myself to my wife – I want to desire her and only her. I want to be captivated by her breasts. I want to be longing to see love her – to fill her desire and for only her to satisfy mine.

Forgive me. Restore me to a level of purity that only you can make possible.

Please God, I am asking you to take these thoughts and memories of the past and erase them from my being.

Turn me into more of you, and make me be less of me.

Only you hold the deletion button for my thought life. Press it. Please! And Help Me! Keep me clean.

I love you God. I wait for you. I can’t do this – I always fail. I need you. Change me. My hope is in you. During the quietness of the night, and the business of the day, I will anxiously await your action.

Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;

wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.

Let me hear joy and gladness;

let the bones that you have broken rejoice.

Hide your face from my sins,

and blot out all my iniquities.

Create in me a clean heart, O God,

and renew a right spirit within me.

Cast me not away from your presence,

and take not your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation,

and uphold me with a willing spirit.

Psalm 51:7-12, ESV

January 18, 2014 By Castimonia

Fighting Porn Addiction

by Brad Andres

– You’re past the point of denial. You’ve moved into reality. It’s here; It’s real – You’re addicted to pornography.

“I can stop anytime I want,” you say to yourself, “I’m not addicted.”

– Is that so? Stop watching porn then…

“Well, it’s just not that easy…”

– Yep. That’s because your addicted.

“No I’m not.”

– Well now you’ve fallen back into denial. Let’s just assume you’re addicted and move on past this vicious circle.

Levels of Addiction

I think most people tend to view addiction as an uncontrollable, unquenchable desire. Addiction can be defined as a habit (in this case – watching pornography) which has become compulsive and enslaving. In some ways, this inner desire controls you. You are not controlling it. So it’s not unquenchable, because you have beat it before. But it is an addiction – you keep falling back to it.

So whether you watch porn daily, weekly, or once a month – when you lose the battle against it (multiple times), you’re addicted.

You need to realize the root of the addiction:

This is physical – Masturbation feels good. This is psychological – Our brains release chemicals and all this other fun stuff happens when we watch porn. It’s not simply because then women are so hot. This is spiritual – You’ve given a piece of yourself away when you masturbate to pornography.

Watching pornography is a sinful habit. It can be defeated.

Let’s Fight

Discipline – The best fighters are well disciplined.

I think of coach Boone in Remember the Titans:

“I don’t scratch my head unless it itches…”

We realize the discipline it takes to hit the gym everyday as a professional boxer. In addition, they need to eat right, sleep right, and rest right. Also, they need the discipline to know when to take a punch, when to dodge a blow, etc. All this takes discipline. If it were easy – there would be a lot more professional boxers.

Self-discipline is a staple for overcoming the drive and desire for watching porn. However, self-discipline isn’t something you can switch on and off at will. Self-discipline is a lifestyle. It is a habit.

So you’re gonna need to train – to fight. Practice doing things that your body works against. If you don’t work out – start. Do it because you need to develop self-discipline to do the things your body doesn’t want to do. Other practices to help you in your training:

You’re gonna need to start eating right

The better you are physically, the more stamina you’ll have in fighting off these desires. Let’s be real, many times the desire to check out the website comes when you’re tired, stressed, or upset.

You’re gonna need to sleep right

Again the better shape you are physically, the easier you’ll be able to ward off attacks instead of giving in. Get yourself a good eight hours.

You’re gonna want to start fasting

This will teach you spiritual discipline and give you mastery over your body. Your desires do not rule you – you are the commander of your body.

You’re gonna want to start praying

This is a spiritual battle, and you’re not gonna be able to beat it on your own.

You’re gonna want to starve yourself of all sexual content

No TV shows with sex scenes or sexual innuendos. No movies with any sort of promiscuous sexual content. Make yourself look away from the Victoria Secret posters when walking through the mall. No watching movies with the celebrities you used to look up on the Internet.

You’re gonna want to find an accountability partner

Yes you will answer to God, but that time is so far removed from now (in our minds anyway), that it normally doesn’t impact behavior. If your friend or mentor is calling (or texting) at 8 pm each night to follow up with you, it impacts your behavior because it’s much more immediate.

If you have integrity you’ll be fine, man up and tell him you failed, ask for prayer, and tomorrow is a new day. If you lie, you’re never going to beat the porn addiction until you stop lying. It’s easier to simply say a lie than to physically act against your body’s desires.

By the way, I feel it is important to let you know this isn’t theoretical knowledge. I’ve been there, I was addicted, and with God’s help – that addiction was broken.