The next few posts on Castimonia.org will focus on former female pornstars that have come forward to burst the fantasy bubble and expose the harsh reality of the pornography industry.  I urge everyone who reads this NOT to go searching on the internet for more information on these women as it would most likely bring up old ponographic content and constitute acting out.  Be satisfied about what you read here and praise God for the courage these women have to speak the TRUTH about the porn industry.  A special thank you to Shelley Lubben for her hard work with the Pink Cross Foundation. 


L**** L*******

L**** L******* has much to say about her pornographer:

“When in response to his suggestions I let him know I would not become involved in prostitution in any way and told him I intended to leave, [T******] beat me up physically and the constant mental abuse began. I literally became a prisoner, I was not allowed out of his sight, not even to use the bathroom, where he watched me through a hole in… the door. He slept on top of me at night, he listened to my telephone calls with a .45 automatic eight shot pointed at me. I was beaten physically and suffered mental abuse each and every day thereafter. He undermined my ties with other people and forced me to marry him on advice from his lawyer.”

“My initiation into prostitution was a gang rape by five men, arranged by Mr. T******. It was the turning point in my life. He threatened to shoot me with the pistol if I didn’t go through with it. I had never experienced anal sex before and it ripped me apart. They treated me like [triggering language removed] I have never been so frightened and disgraced and humiliated in my life. I felt like garbage. I engaged in sex acts for pornography against my will to avoid being killed.The lives of my family were threatened.”


J**** J******

“Most girls get their first experience in gonzo films – in which they’re taken to  a crappy studio apartment in Mission Hills and penetrated in every hole possible  by some abusive a****** who thinks her name is Bitch. And these girls, some of  whom have the potential to become major stars in the industry, go home afterward  and pledge never to do it again because it was such a terrible experience.”


A**** C*******

“I have been a performer now for 14 years in the adult film industry in many countries, states . . . all over the place. I have worked for most of these companies, and I was around for the once-a-month HIV-positive outbreak in ’98. Yes, I was, and I got to see those performers that nobody knows about—that nobody claims that got HIV, that are not a part of the statistics—walk out the door as non-performers, not to be counted.”

“Yeah, there are a lot of cover-ups going on. There is a lot of tragedy. There are a lot of horrible things.”


S******** S****

“I was sexually abused the first time by my step grandfather on my dad’s side and the second time by my actual stepdad so my sexuality was messed up from the beginning. I created another personality that was in complete control and didn’t have those things happen and didn’t have to deal with the pain. The industry is not a real accomplishment.  It’s just a false sense of accomplishment.  It covers everything up for what it is.”


B*********

“I like to hide — hide everything, you know?… And I’m not happy… I don’t like myself at all… My whole entire body feels it when I’m doing it and… I feel so — so gross.”


A*** A*******

“After a year or so of that so-called “glamorous” life, I sadly discovered that drugs and drinking were a part of the lifestyle. I began to drink and party out of control! Cocaine, alcohol and ecstasy were my favorites. Before long, I turned into a person I did not want to be. After doing so many hardcore scenes I couldn’t do it anymore. I just remember being in horrible situations and experiencing extreme depression and being alone and sad.” – A*** A*******


A****** B*****

“I honestly felt that if I had to have another strange man in my face, his hands (God knows where they’ve been) all over me, him calling me his “baby”, and having to exude some sort of forged passion for the world to see, I probably would’ve exploded. And what would’ve been stuck to the walls would’ve probably been nothing. Just pieces of skin, bone, the brain of a robot, and what would have been left of a once huge and warm heart.”


T**** T****

“As for myself, I ended up paying the price from working in the porn industry. In 2006, not even 9 months in, I caught a moderate form of dysplasia of the cervix(which is a form of HPV, a sexually transmitted disease) and later that day, I also found out I was pregnant. I had only 1 choice which was to abort the baby during my first month. It was extremely painful emotionally and physically. When it was all over, I cried my eyes out.”- T**** T****


L*** R***

“We should think about these issues right now, to change stuff around to make this a safer f**kin’ business. It isn’t a safe business, and I thought it was, and I would have not did that scene with no condom with Darren James if it would have crossed my mind that those tests weren’t good and that I couldn’t trust him or the people he’s been with. I thought porn people were the cleanest people in the world, is what I thought.” – L*** R***, diagnosed with HIV in April, 2004 along with four other porn stars.

Comments
  1. Stark isn’t it when you read the words of these ex-porn performers. It seems that no one really wants to hear the pain thier time in the industry has caused them.

  2. […] Let’s take a different angle on it.  The women who are shrieking with apparent ecstacy are not as willing participants as they seem.  Here is an article about the abuse and trauma these women suffer, “Multiple Pornstars Speak Out About The Reality of The Pornography Industry!”  https://castimonia.org/2013/08/15/multiple-pornstars-speak-out-about-the-reality-of-the-pornography-i… […]

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