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Read This If You Feel Unworthy
Originally posted on Thought Catalog
“You are not an accident”
I was sitting in my room one morning when this phrase came to me in a fit of inspiration. I was feeling down on myself about things I could be doing better, ways that I wasn’t living up to what other people wanted from me. How I wasn’t this enough or that enough. How I wasn’t successful enough after an expensive college education and doing everything that all of us are told to do in order to be successful.
After going through these feelings one by one, it dawned on me that despite this obsession with perfection – by people, institutions, and the media alike – it’s unattainable and I shouldn’t feel bad for being who I am right now. Right in this moment. Even if that person is a work in progress there is still meaning to my existence.
I happen to deeply believe that everything happens for a reason and there is a purpose to all of the crazy, wacky, disturbing, and unsettling things that happen to me – whether I play a part in it or not. Even if I don’t understand all of it, it’s not my job to understand all of it.
I am not an accident.
In that moment, I reached for a post-it note and wrote that quote down in sharpie to tape to my bedroom wall.
Whether you believe in God or not, isn’t it a beautiful sentiment?
The way that you are, the things you feel, your shining moments along with your doubts and insecurities – they’re all what make you, you. You are the way that you are, undoubtedly. And no part of it is wrong. It is part of your humanness.
You are not wrong.
We all have flaws. Our flaws and struggles are a gift, given to us so that we may transcend them and help others see their way out of their hardships more clearly.
If you believe in Christian philosophies, then you have probably heard the phrase/affirmation:
“I am fearfully & wonderfully made” – Psalm 139:14
By believing this, you take away all of the shame and self-hatred that is seemingly normalized by today’s culture. If the person you are today is good and fair and kind and doing their best, then you can cut yourself some slack. You may not be the most organized, the most devout, the most patient, the most put together – but if you’re showing up each day and you care then you’re already on a respectable path.
You’re Trying.
Whatever value or criticism others tell you aside from what you know about yourself is simply an opinion. Take it as such. And note that their opinion doesn’t matter so much anyway. That’s one of the many reasons why it is so important to get to know yourself, so you won’t live your life at the will of what other people tell you.
Ultimately, you’re the one who has to wake up each morning and live your life. So take it easy on yourself. Be kind to you. You’re not an accident. You have a purpose. Whether you assign yourself one, seek to find the one that God/the Universe has set for you, or don’t know exactly what it is yet – remember your worth and value.
As Elizabeth Gilbert wonderfully said in her new book Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear:
“The Fact that you are here – a creation of God – is proof that you deserve to be here.”
Exist. Take up space. Unapologetically. It’s your birthright.
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Overcoming Thoughts of Spiritual Betrayal (by God)
SOURCE: Dr. Gregory Jantz/AACC
If you have faith in God, depression can be similar to a betrayal by him.
After all, you have trusted him to care for you, yet you are still depressed. You may have heard from your childhood that, as a Christian, you were to experience and exhibit joy, peace, patience—all the fruit of the Spirit spoken of in Galatians 5:22-23. This sense of betrayal may haunt your sleepless nights and invade your despairing thoughts. Feeling forgotten by God, you may even be angry at him.
This anger at God can contribute to your depression by provoking feelings of guilt. You don’t think you should be angry at God, or you don’t think you have the right to be angry at God, so you feel guilty when you pray, the more you are convinced that he could fix it, but he won’t . You doubt his love. But you’ve also memorized John 3:16, which begins, “For God so loved the world…” so you’ve been told he does love you. Looking at all of this, you conclude he’s got a lousy way of showing his love, at least to you.
Or you may think, Perhaps I don’t deserve his love. Maybe he doesn’t change my situation because I don’t deserve joy and peace in my life. Possibly the things I’ve done are so bad that he wants to love me but can’t because of who I am. And if God can’t love me, then I’m not really worthy to be loved by anyone. And if my life is to be empty of love, hope is impossible. If you look at it this way, depression is completely understandable.
Or is it?
Have you picked up the stream of thoughts in this line of reasoning?
It takes snippets of truth—God loves you, and Christians are to live lives of joy—and twists those around into something meant to injure you, not give you comfort. This line of reasoning is not from God; it is from the Deceiver. Rage is a deceiver. False guilt is a deceiver. Abject despair is a deceiver. Depression is a deceiver. That is why when you are in the midst of depression, you must replace your own negative self-talk with God-talk, which is based upon truth. This God-talk will support your positive self-talk by agreeing with affirming statements, such as these:
- I deserve love. (“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life” – John 3:16)
- I deserve joy. (“Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away” –Isaiah 51:11)
- I am strong enough to learn and grow each day. (“It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect” – 2 Samuel 22:33)
- I can experience contentment in my life. (“I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation” – Philippians 4:12)
- I am able to respond to my circumstances, instead of react. (“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will” – Romans 12:2)
- I can look forward to tomorrow. (“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness” –Lamentations 3:22-23)
How do you fill your life and your mind with God-talk?
The Bible is full of life-affirming messages. It is, at its heart, a love story. It is a story of a loving God, who created you to love you and to be loved by you.
Like every great story, there is a separation, which must be overcome by terrible sacrifice. Through God’s sacrifice of his Son, Jesus, you are able to confidently say, “I can live happily ever after.”
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Authored by Dr. Gregory Jantz, founder of The Center • A Place of HOPE and author of 35 books.
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