22 years ago today, I entered a rehab facility for help with sexual addiction.
I was 35 years old, and for the first time in my life, I began to grow up. One thing I have learned about myself, I was immature because I was stuck in my childhood. I was sexually used, then abused from the time I was 8 until I was 12 years old. That locked me into my childhood. I grew up full of embarrassment, shame, anger, fear and neglect. Ironically, the one thing that was the source of my shame became the one thing I used to make me feel good. Sex. Masturbation, porn, girls, fantasies, daydreams, these became my way of life.