Let’s pray for God’s healing of R. C. Sproul, Jr.  I wish I could tell him that he is not alone.

Judgment and Grace

Monday, August 31, 2015

The message of God’s prophets in the Old Testament amounted to this- God is not pleased with what you are doing. Repent. We miss that prophets were agents of grace as were the judgments promised. The purpose, in both instances, was to be a goad to repentance, a wake-up call. The same is true today as God works in and through providence. For the believer, judgment is always a work of God’s grace, a goad to repentance. Many Christians have bemoaned the destruction wrought by the Ashley Madison hack. The truth of the matter is that just as Ashley Madison did not create unfaithful hearts, so this hack did not create damning exposure. Rather for some it was a means of His grace.

In August 2014, in a moment of weakness, pain, and from an unhealthy curiosity, I visited Ashley Madison. My goal was not to gather research for critical commentary, but to fan the flames of my imagination. There I found two gracious judgments. First, I felt the grace of fear. Second, I felt the grace of shame. I was there long enough to leave an old email address. And within minutes I left, never to return. I did not sign up for their service or interact with any clients. I have always remained faithful to my wife even after her passing.

The grace of God’s judgment bore its fruit, and by His grace I repented of my sin. By His grace, I have also received His forgiveness, the outworking of His love. Prophetic providence had done its good office. Jesus died for this sin, but there are still earthly consequences. With the revelation of the hack has come the revelation of my sin. I recently informed the board of Ligonier Ministries, which has handled the matter internally, having suspended me until July 1, 2016. I also informed my presbytery which is also handling the matter internally. And now the world is informed.

My sin, sadly, has impacted those who are innocent- my colleagues, friends, and family. I have and will continue to seek their forgiveness. I covet your prayers.


  1. Will says:

    I see this as a great opportunity to shed light on a problem that’s plaguing the country…and for that matter the world…Each and every individual was seeking something or someone to fulfill an emptiness that by our fallen nature want to fill. The emptiness we seek can only be filled with the Love of Christ…and is our honor to take that message to those that suffer that there is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

  2. Woody says:

    I was one of those pastors who lived a double life. When I came clean it was because I just couldn’t live with myself anymore. I wasn’t caught, though I’m sure if I had continued in my double life it would have been inevitable. My heart goes out to Dr. Sproul. We need to be compassionate. How much better it would have been if he had had someone he could have talked to back then. What matters now though, is what is he doing going forward? What will he learn from this experience. We all have failures and weak moments from time to time, what matters is what we learn from those experiences. We talk about progress, not perfection…and we mean it when we say it. I pray Dr. Sproul has people around him that he can be genuine with. Living authentically has no comparison and I believe it is one of the best ways to prevent future relapses.

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