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Castimonia Thursday Night Meeting

Just a reminder to everyone that we are starting a third weekly Castimonia meeting on Thursday nights!  The meeting will be held “off campus” at another church who was gracious enough to donate one of their rooms for this Men’s Sexual Purity Support & Recovery group!

I look forward to seeing you this Thursday night!

Castimonia Men’s Sexual Purity Support & Recovery Group
Time: Thursday Nights, 7:00PM – 8:30PM
Location: Grace Fellowship United Methodist Church – Epicentre Youth Building, Room 213
2655 South Mason Road
Katy, TX  77450
281.646.1903

  
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Memorial Day

Today I am grateful for those that gave their lives so that I could enjoy the freedoms I have living in this country which iniclude the freedom to seek help for my addiction and the freedom to choose the recovery program that is best for me and my sobriety.

All Gave Some, Some Gave All….

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How to Pray for Purity

I read this post from Pure Hope and was in awe of the prayer at the end.  Please visit Pure Hope’s Blog, it has great information on Sexual Purity, some of which, I will repost here.

How to Pray for Purity.

How to Pray for Purity

Posted on May 2, 2012 by

by David Schrock, M.Div.

In 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17, Paul says that we are to be constantly in prayer: “Pray without ceasing . . . for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” Earlier in his same letter to the faithful Thessalonian church, he states, “For this is the will of God, your sanctification” (4:3). In those two statements, you have a clear declaration of God’s will for our lives: that we prayerfully strive for the holiness of Jesus.

There can be no mistaking the will of God about prayer and purity, but perhaps we forget these basic truths, or perhaps we in our sinfulness do not know how to approach a holy God about our sexual purity. And it is probably the case that few of us have heard such prayers in our churches. So how do we learn to pray for purity?

Recently, I was reading through Scotty Smith’s prayer book, Everyday Prayers, and I came across a model prayer by Pastor Smith based on 1 Corinthians 6:14-18. It is a prayer that meditates on the “brokenness and beauty of human sexuality.” Take a listen:

Holy and loving Jesus, so many thoughts are swirling through my head this morning. I’ve never been more aware of the pervasiveness of sexual brokenness—everywhere I go, everywhere I look, including in the mirror. It’s like we’re living in the Corinth of Paul’s day. So many of us bear the wounds, feel the shame, know the disconnect of our sexual brokenness and sin. And yet the gospel dares us to hope.

Indeed, hope—that’s the greater impulse of my heart this morning. In fact, as I ponder what Paul was saying to the Corinthians, I am left speechless—overwhelmed at the beauty, Jesus, of belonging to you, being desired by you, being “known” by you in the most intimate of all ways.

Dare I say it, Lord Jesus? Whatever the “best sex” is between a husband and wife, it’s only a hint and a whisper of the intimacy you intend for yourself and your bride. Jesus, give me a greater capacity to understand, believe, and enjoy the wonders of the relationship you’ve established with us.

Why should I flee all forms of sexual immorality? Simply because it’s what I’m supposed to do as a Christian? Only because it’s “the rules”? That would never be enough to keep me from acting out in selfish and destructive ways. I’ll flee sexual immorality because you flee to us in the gospel.

You’ve died for us; you’ve been raised for us; you’ve married yourself to us; you’ve united everything that we are to yourself. We’re already one with you “in spirit,” and we await your return and our resurrection. Whatever the future and fulfillment of sexuality is, it belongs to you.

Until then, Lord Jesus, help us flee all forms of sexual immorality by fleeing to you, our great and gracious bridegroom. In our marriages, in our singleness, in our brokenness, in our need for repentance and healing, be glorified. I pray in your peerless name. Amen.

Smith’s prayer is the kind of prayer we must pray if we are to strive towards purity and holiness. It both recognizes our sin and shamelessly confesses it to our Lord, and simultaneously, it rests in the matchless beauty of the gospel.

May God use this prayer to spur you on in your prayers for purity, for indeed you have this promise from God that he gladly answers the prayers that are in his will (1 John 5:14). And knowing that purity is God’s will for your life (1 Thessalonians 4:3), you can pray with bold faith that God will give you wisdom to walk purely as you daily turn to him in prayer (James 1:5-7). In this way, you and I must pray continually to be pure and holy in a Corinthian age.

To find more daily prayers from Scotty Smith, click here to view his blog Heavenward.

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Journey of Hope Retreat #15

Journey of Hope Retreat #15

For those that are not familiar with this retreat, I am presenting a short write-up on my overall experience.  Because of how powerful of an experience this retreat can be for those of us who struggle with sexual purity, I cannot go into specific details about what actually happens at the retreat, what is said at the retreat, or who is at the retreat (other than Dr. Milton Magness, one of the country’s top sexual addiction therapists, who organizes the retreat).

“WOW!” Is only one word I would use to describe this experience.  I’ll be up front and state this is my first (of hopefully many) retreats dealing with sexual purity but it was a great experience, to say the least.  There is something amazing about being around other men like me who struggle with sexual purity issues.  The openness and honesty during the retreat was a definite change from the “real world” where many men decide to wear “masks” to hide their secret life struggle with sexual purity.  This is especially present in today’s Christian churches across the world!

I had always recommended this retreat to men in my Castimonia recovery group and finally decided to attend the retreat.  I have only been in recovery a little over 3 years, and I felt I might gain something from attending this retreat.  Even just a little more knowledge about sexual addiction is worth it to me!  I not only gained a little more knowledge, but I gained a whole new breath of fresh recovery air.  The activities, discussions, sessions, and brotherhood at the retreat helped me tremendously!

This retreat was so powerful for me.  It solidified the fact that I am living and want to live a life full of recovery.  Recovery for me has been a lifestyle, and I felt very much at home at this retreat.  And for one of the very few times in my life, I felt “normal” while at this retreat.  To be honest, I only really feel “normal” with my family, at my church, and at recovery meetings such as Castimonia, Celebrate Recovery, or Sex Addicts Anonymous.

I can now state to my group and others that I highly recommend this retreat based on my own personal experience!  It is too bad that this is a “one-time” event held for men who struggle with sexual purity.  Although you may not realize it at first, by the end you will realize that this really was a once in a lifetime event, never to be repeated, tailored just for you by God.  This is truly an experience you do not want to miss out on!

Click here for the Castimonia events page listing general information on the retreat.

Click here for Hope & Freedom’s Journey of Hope Retreat #16 web page and sign-up page.

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Jesus Christ, Friend of Sex Addicts

Jesus Christ, Friend of Sex Addicts

What an appropriate title for a blog post on Christian sexual addiction recovery. Understand that what you are about to read cannot literally be found in any Gospel in the Bible, and it is only my version of a man’s life that Jesus Christ experienced. One of the greatest gifts I have received in my own recovery is the knowledge that my “Higher Power” was right there with me at the depth of my suffering. He was there to hold my hand in the darkest of times.

Jesus witnessed sexual abuse in one of his brothers from ages 3 to 7 and observed the suffering, shame and guilt associated with these activities.  His brother grew up to become a sex addict.  Jesus was there when this boy discovered his father’s pornography collection at age 4 and began viewing pornography almost daily as well as masturbating compulsively until he entered recovery. Again, he felt for the loneliness, shame, and guilt associated with this boy’s addiction. He saw the pain of this boy’s family life and the burden of his secret that kept this boy wanting to escape, and sexual acting out was an easy way for him to escape. However, the cycle was a “Catch 22.” The more pain and suffering this boy experienced because of his sexual acting out, the more this boy wanted to medicate with sexual acting out, and then would come the guilt, shame, pain and suffering from the acting out. It was a never ending cycle! However, Jesus was there with this boy the entire time.

When this boy turned age 17 he visited his first prostitute, Jesus was with him in the room, saddened by his choices. Once the young man crossed this “flesh line,” he was hooked. Pornography was not enough for him; he needed to feel the flesh of a woman. However, this too led to an amount of shame and guilt almost unbearable to any human! Jesus knew it was wrong, he wanted this young man to stop, and turn to Him for the fulfillment of this boy’s needs, but the young man simply could not.

In college, Jesus was with this young man through all the drinking binges, drug use, and sexual acting out he did in order to dull the pain he had and was experiencing. He was there to witness the cries of pain and suffering let out by this young man, who still inside was a much wounded child.  Still this young man could not see Him, Jesus, who was right there waiting.

After beginning his professional work, this man continued to view pornography on a daily basis and act out sexually with a variety of women. Each and every time, this man felt full of shame and guilt, and felt completely empty. Why couldn’t he stop? Was this the life God, the father, wanted for him? He tore through relationships with women like pieces of tissue paper. If there was not sexual fulfillment, the relationship was almost worthless. However, because of his fear of abandonment, he chose to stay in loveless, unhealthy, and sometimes violent relationships. The fear of abandonment was gut wrenching, it went down to his core. This fear began by being left alone at such an early age. However, Jesus was with this man in those most lonely of times.

The worst pain and suffering, however, was when this man hit rock bottom. Alone, or so he thought, he prayed to God, the father to spare him this pain and suffering. He begged for help, Jesus saw how this man had destroyed his life, how his life was falling apart. This man had proved his powerlessness by engaging in unsafe and compulsive sexual behavior, over and over, even after making deals with God, the Father, to stop! His life was completely unmanageable, doing things he did not want to do anymore, losing his family, and possibly his life. Suicide was a way out for this man, so he thought. He could not face the pain and suffering anymore, the thought of taking his own life was consuming. The pain and suffering was monumental at this point, he knew things had to change, he needed help, he had to try to fix his life and repair the collateral damage done, but sometimes death seems the easier way out. The choice was his to make… And Jesus was right next to him as he made the choice, hurting for this broken man.

Psalm 34:18 (NIV) – The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

And this is where things began to change for this man. He chose the path of recovery; he was given godly advice by a Christian therapist who told him he might have a sexual addiction. He sought help for his problem and slowly began repairing the damage he had caused to himself and to others. Sometimes we all have to hit that rock bottom in order to know that the Lord is close to us and that he can redeem our life from the pit!

The idea for this post was inspired by the Casting Crowns song, “Jesus, friend of sinners” and a good friend of mine who stated in his blog the following:

“He was a totally innocent person, and yet He was made to take all our sin, and consequent suffering as penalty, so that we would not have to….He suffered like no man has ever suffered or ever will suffer in this life. Perspective is important here; He experienced suffering for literally billions of people, we can only experience suffering for ourselves and empathetically, those we love. To compare our sufferings with the sufferings that Jesus experienced is an insult to God because it minimizes what happened that day.” Read the entire blog post here.

In my view, Jesus not only suffered the wrath of God for my sins, but he also suffered for the pain and suffering associated with my sin. He was right next to me experiencing what I experienced; suffering for me while I suffered, like a father would for his son. In my addiction, my life was empty, void, apart from God. I suffered from feelings of shame, guilt, sadness, depression, suicide, anger, hatred, violence, and everything associated with my addiction. Even in the depths of my addiction, Jesus Christ was with me, he never left my side. Jesus was with all addicts throughout their lives, something we need to be mindful of in our recovery. When Jesus was crucified, he was crucified for my sins and he suffered a great deal, more than I can ever imagine. All the pain and suffering from all of humanity, addict and non-addict, placed solely on Jesus Christ so that if we believe in Him, we can have eternal life with God.

2 Corinthians 5:21 (NIV) – God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Take what you like, and leave the rest.